Thursday, July 30, 2009
OUR KRYPTONITE CURE.
hey everyone... yup its my off day today hence the opportunity to be able to update my blog again (: anyways, today has been kinda boring. nothing to keep me busy but GG and CSI miami episodes i watched online. honestly, i miss school... not just the people, but the feeling of learning something new and being able to be in my uniform and carrying my school bag. haha i miss the feeling terribly much. i guess i have to get over it. just like any other things that made me unhappy before.
i think god has blessed me with the ability to get over things and bounce back fast. but i don't think it'd last long. everybody has a weakness. be it tangible or in-tangible, phyiscal or emotional. we have weaknesses. like how superman's weakness to kryptonite. as strong as he is, kryptonite brings him down. i know its hard to fight these weaknesses. having a weakness is having a fault or problem in oneself that makes him/her less effective or attractive.
THEN AGAIN,
having a weakness can also be a good thing. something that we enjoy or even LOVE.
its actually up to us if we want these WEAKNESSES of ours to take over our lives and cause us to change the way we live. its up to us to face these weaknesses, and conquer them, before they consume us.
if there's one thing i learnt in GG today, LOVE aint easy. refer to my poem in one of my earlier entry. even for the upper east siders, its hard to keep relationships there. plagued with with scandals, and GOSSIP GIRL herself. BUT, like MOST shows, they always have happy endings. in reality, happy endings aren't always the case... so much for happy endings
so much for all the fairy tales we've heard about and dreamt about when we were younger.
BUT. these little fairy tales keeps us dreaming and hoping. from young, hope was instilled in us, the dream of our little happy ever after. and sometimes maybe thats what we need.. just keep hoping and believing for something better, therefore, eliminating our weaknesses.
haha i hope you guys understand where im coming from. okay BYL guys (:
hey everyone... yup its my off day today hence the opportunity to be able to update my blog again (: anyways, today has been kinda boring. nothing to keep me busy but GG and CSI miami episodes i watched online. honestly, i miss school... not just the people, but the feeling of learning something new and being able to be in my uniform and carrying my school bag. haha i miss the feeling terribly much. i guess i have to get over it. just like any other things that made me unhappy before.
i think god has blessed me with the ability to get over things and bounce back fast. but i don't think it'd last long. everybody has a weakness. be it tangible or in-tangible, phyiscal or emotional. we have weaknesses. like how superman's weakness to kryptonite. as strong as he is, kryptonite brings him down. i know its hard to fight these weaknesses. having a weakness is having a fault or problem in oneself that makes him/her less effective or attractive.
THEN AGAIN,
having a weakness can also be a good thing. something that we enjoy or even LOVE.
its actually up to us if we want these WEAKNESSES of ours to take over our lives and cause us to change the way we live. its up to us to face these weaknesses, and conquer them, before they consume us.
if there's one thing i learnt in GG today, LOVE aint easy. refer to my poem in one of my earlier entry. even for the upper east siders, its hard to keep relationships there. plagued with with scandals, and GOSSIP GIRL herself. BUT, like MOST shows, they always have happy endings. in reality, happy endings aren't always the case... so much for happy endings
so much for all the fairy tales we've heard about and dreamt about when we were younger.
BUT. these little fairy tales keeps us dreaming and hoping. from young, hope was instilled in us, the dream of our little happy ever after. and sometimes maybe thats what we need.. just keep hoping and believing for something better, therefore, eliminating our weaknesses.
haha i hope you guys understand where im coming from. okay BYL guys (:
♥xoxo, jo baby(:
@ 7/30/2009 09:07:00 PM
@ 7/30/2009 09:07:00 PM
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
DAY OUT!
hey hey bloggies! ahaha! long time no update right? haha been kinda caught up lately. work and all... haha! oh well... can't complain cause i wanted my days filled the last time when idling was all i had on my schedule. haha so let me tell you what i had this week. on monday, i went back to school in my uniform (: haha! YES FINALLY. complete with the MI badge. haha from my bear cause i gave justin mine. so yeah. i swear it looked like a sticker. so was there to carry out a special mission for one of my closest friends. haha! YEAH ITS SHA BIRTHDAY! haha! i bought the cake and rushed over to school raining. damn ): khyad , kiren and lah lah helped with the surprise. (: YAY! SHA CRIED ! its the 2nd time i made him cry! AWESOME! (: okay... so yeah after the celebration, i talked to justin for a little while before having to go meet claud. haha I MISS THAT BUGGER. so yeah like i said, i took the train to woodlands and took 168 with lah lah. haha aftre that, i met claud to go for glo's dad's wake.
pray that his soul rests in peace with the lord, and that the lord my grant glo and her family, strength and comfort. amen.
okay then yesterday, before going for work, i went to meet nico... hahah! so fun! we went thrift shopping at salvation army market. haha! the things you find there, you'll never know. haha we took pictures too.. haha in the cab... i swear, the uncle was like wth? in the mirror.
today, met the 3 rangers for some shopping after 3. we bought our ranger watches, so we can power up. LOL haha took photos also.
okay, thats all for now. i don't know what im going to do tmr, so yeah okay im going to play my computer games now...
BYL PEEPS! (:
hey hey bloggies! ahaha! long time no update right? haha been kinda caught up lately. work and all... haha! oh well... can't complain cause i wanted my days filled the last time when idling was all i had on my schedule. haha so let me tell you what i had this week. on monday, i went back to school in my uniform (: haha! YES FINALLY. complete with the MI badge. haha from my bear cause i gave justin mine. so yeah. i swear it looked like a sticker. so was there to carry out a special mission for one of my closest friends. haha! YEAH ITS SHA BIRTHDAY! haha! i bought the cake and rushed over to school raining. damn ): khyad , kiren and lah lah helped with the surprise. (: YAY! SHA CRIED ! its the 2nd time i made him cry! AWESOME! (: okay... so yeah after the celebration, i talked to justin for a little while before having to go meet claud. haha I MISS THAT BUGGER. so yeah like i said, i took the train to woodlands and took 168 with lah lah. haha aftre that, i met claud to go for glo's dad's wake.
pray that his soul rests in peace with the lord, and that the lord my grant glo and her family, strength and comfort. amen.
okay then yesterday, before going for work, i went to meet nico... hahah! so fun! we went thrift shopping at salvation army market. haha! the things you find there, you'll never know. haha we took pictures too.. haha in the cab... i swear, the uncle was like wth? in the mirror.
today, met the 3 rangers for some shopping after 3. we bought our ranger watches, so we can power up. LOL haha took photos also.
okay, thats all for now. i don't know what im going to do tmr, so yeah okay im going to play my computer games now...
BYL PEEPS! (:
♥xoxo, jo baby(:
@ 7/29/2009 09:35:00 PM
@ 7/29/2009 09:35:00 PM
Thursday, July 23, 2009
FEELINGS ON PAPER FOR YOU.
haha hey bloggies. back again... anyways, i looked through some of the folders on the com. then i found this poem that i wrote the night i recieved the bad news that my uncle died. yeah. my mom was about to fly to the phils to be there at the last moments of his life. but i guess time waits for no one.
it was 2 years ago.
i woke up in the middle of the night. to my house phone ringing and thought to myself,
'who could be calling us at this time?' then after i asked myself that, i think somewhere inside of me knew it was something bad. i picked up the phone, and on the other line, my mama lerma. sobbing. and told me to call my mom. i jumped up. ran to tell my mom. for a person who just woke up, the NEWS, cause my body to react so quickly. so i told my mom.
immediately she ran to the phone, my dad beside her now, he held her. and when i saw tears come down my mother's eyes. i sat on my bed, took out my song book and started writing. writing on the spot. just letting my feelings flow through my hands and on the paper. but i didn't write a song, i wrote a poem.
i wrote 2 actually, after i wrote them, i felt so much better.
so this is the first poem i wrote. this was actually for my grandpa, and my other uncle who passed on years ago.
It’s time to say goodbye I guess
Your untimely death in eternity you rest.
At peace with the lord you will be…
Paradise you shall finally see.
Although separated physically,
But in these hearts you will forever be.
Memories of you etched in many minds,
Even if many years past by.
When you were alive, you were a good daddy
Catering to your every child’s needs
You tried your very best to support your family,
Making sure that they lived happily.
That’s how you would be remembered exactly,
By your dear, dear family,
Forever loved, forever cherished
we are gonna miss you always…
okay i could find my other poem cause apparently my mom left that poem in my uncle's coffin, with him, amongst the roses.
♥xoxo, jo baby(:
@ 7/23/2009 04:11:00 PM
@ 7/23/2009 04:11:00 PM
FRIENDS AND THEIR QUOTES
hey blogies! haha its been awhile since i blogged. haha but i haven't got the time to lately. there's something wrong with blogger on the lappie. anyways. so i finished my training at the cathay Ehub. 3 days straight. learnt alot of things. so the manager told me that i'll get today off and start running my own counter on friday. and on saturday, i'll be working for 8 hours from 6pm to 2am! YIKES! so scary. eee... i just hope my memory pulls through for me. so terrified of SHORTAGES. anyways i just have to make sure that i could do it. and BELIEVE THAT I CAN. and then nothing will go wrong. I HOPE. okay. anyways. i can't wait for my first pay. i'll be damn self satisfied. (: then im off to SHOPPING! (:
like what jerrold told me before : ' God doesn't close one door, without opening another.'
okay i shan't think that far yet. alright. yesterday night, i was talking to lah lah. we were having a heart to heart talk. found out alittle stuff. haha i discovered that we have the same problem i guess, we are like lost deers. okay if he doesn't feel like that, then i do.
EVEN if i try, it'll just backfire on me. so... i've decided, not to put in too much thought, hopes and expectations up. cause i'll just end up disappointed in the end not getting the thing that we want. and i know some of you have been hearing me say that for almost all of THEM. UGH.
but as what nico said, ' good things come to those who wait.'
haha looks like i owe it to my friends and their quotes. haha (:
okay guys BYL! (:
hey blogies! haha its been awhile since i blogged. haha but i haven't got the time to lately. there's something wrong with blogger on the lappie. anyways. so i finished my training at the cathay Ehub. 3 days straight. learnt alot of things. so the manager told me that i'll get today off and start running my own counter on friday. and on saturday, i'll be working for 8 hours from 6pm to 2am! YIKES! so scary. eee... i just hope my memory pulls through for me. so terrified of SHORTAGES. anyways i just have to make sure that i could do it. and BELIEVE THAT I CAN. and then nothing will go wrong. I HOPE. okay. anyways. i can't wait for my first pay. i'll be damn self satisfied. (: then im off to SHOPPING! (:
like what jerrold told me before : ' God doesn't close one door, without opening another.'
okay i shan't think that far yet. alright. yesterday night, i was talking to lah lah. we were having a heart to heart talk. found out alittle stuff. haha i discovered that we have the same problem i guess, we are like lost deers. okay if he doesn't feel like that, then i do.
EVEN if i try, it'll just backfire on me. so... i've decided, not to put in too much thought, hopes and expectations up. cause i'll just end up disappointed in the end not getting the thing that we want. and i know some of you have been hearing me say that for almost all of THEM. UGH.
but as what nico said, ' good things come to those who wait.'
haha looks like i owe it to my friends and their quotes. haha (:
okay guys BYL! (:
♥xoxo, jo baby(:
@ 7/23/2009 03:42:00 PM
@ 7/23/2009 03:42:00 PM
Sunday, July 19, 2009
GET ME?
hey bloggies.. this entry is late.. haha i just finished everything on the com... taken so many FB quiz til im sick of them. anyways, today, didn't manage to take my test again uh! SO IRRITATING. i reached the venue at 1.15pm and upon reaching, i was told, this time, mandy had to rush off at 2.30pm so even if i started earlier, i would only have 1hr 30min to complete my exam and its supposed to be a 3hr paper. so i was like WHAT? AGAIN?! then i decided to take the exam another day. damn. plus my job's starting next week. you get my dirft.
oh well... so then i went to meet danni who was in town and we talked (: haven't done that in a very VERY long time. it was refreshing. haha took a few picts post it soon (: anways..
gtg now.. update you guys soon (: BYL!
hey bloggies.. this entry is late.. haha i just finished everything on the com... taken so many FB quiz til im sick of them. anyways, today, didn't manage to take my test again uh! SO IRRITATING. i reached the venue at 1.15pm and upon reaching, i was told, this time, mandy had to rush off at 2.30pm so even if i started earlier, i would only have 1hr 30min to complete my exam and its supposed to be a 3hr paper. so i was like WHAT? AGAIN?! then i decided to take the exam another day. damn. plus my job's starting next week. you get my dirft.
oh well... so then i went to meet danni who was in town and we talked (: haven't done that in a very VERY long time. it was refreshing. haha took a few picts post it soon (: anways..
gtg now.. update you guys soon (: BYL!
♥xoxo, jo baby(:
@ 7/19/2009 12:21:00 AM
@ 7/19/2009 12:21:00 AM
Friday, July 17, 2009
TIME TO PUT IN CHANGE.
hey bloggies so did you find out what that 'something i was talking about' was? yeah isn't it true? well most of you got it right (: okay so today was nothing exciting. i just stayed at home and continued studying my INFOCOMM things for the retest that i was supposed to have sat for on wed.
anyways, i woke up at an ungodly hour of 4am. i don't know why. maybe cause some one in my house was still awake? anyways i couldn't manage to get back to sleep for 2 hours. and within that 2 hours of insomnia, alot of things were rushing through my head.
from my retest, to my first day of work, to MI, to my friends and not forgetting HIM.
i tossed and turned but i couldn't seem to let all those things go. i wondered about my future and where i'll be. now that dad was asked to head overseas to india to manage the thai express branch there for 3 weeks. if he accepts this there could be other possible opportunities for travellingto other countries for business, and who knows? it could be a family affair. and i might have to study abroad, not saying that it would be a bad idea, but why not? then again, its hard to let go of this place where memories have been built for a solid 18 years and probably counting.
im trying hard not to think about alot of things in the future and not worry so much. but if everythings insecure right now, wouldn't a little hopeful dream be good? just to keep you going?
nowadays when im not studying, i'll be writing songs. writing songs about loads of things frequently on my mind. its just the way that i express my feelings. through my music and lyrics. most of the time it'll be about that SOMETHING in my last entry. how hard it is to be in and out of it. i just hope i don't get jaded. its like no matter how hard i try, it'll just turn out to be NADA in the end. im getting tired of it. tired of the chase. and when i don't chase, i'll get the wrong ones. ARGH. whatever. when it comes, it comes. i'll just have to wait patiently i guess.
awhile ago i was taking a break and reading my past teenage magazine. there was a question. where do you see yourself in ten years time? hmmm interesting question. one that im not sure of. when i was younger, i had visions and hopes of growing up to be a performer on a big stage performing to MILLIONS. or a professional chef in one of the finest hotels in singpore or overseas. somebody in the media industry film director or producer?. or even a teacher. now my journey has hit some bumps on the way, steering me off the road and into a hazy place.
but after all that bumps im determined now to drive back onto the road.
and say: 'GUESS WHO'S BACK~!"
in all AWESOMENESS(:
time to find the road JO, and get of of the hazy place before you crash and burn cause you can't see. there are certainly gonna be more bumps in the future.
but hey, what doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger right?
okay thats all for now(: BYL!
hey bloggies so did you find out what that 'something i was talking about' was? yeah isn't it true? well most of you got it right (: okay so today was nothing exciting. i just stayed at home and continued studying my INFOCOMM things for the retest that i was supposed to have sat for on wed.
anyways, i woke up at an ungodly hour of 4am. i don't know why. maybe cause some one in my house was still awake? anyways i couldn't manage to get back to sleep for 2 hours. and within that 2 hours of insomnia, alot of things were rushing through my head.
from my retest, to my first day of work, to MI, to my friends and not forgetting HIM.
i tossed and turned but i couldn't seem to let all those things go. i wondered about my future and where i'll be. now that dad was asked to head overseas to india to manage the thai express branch there for 3 weeks. if he accepts this there could be other possible opportunities for travellingto other countries for business, and who knows? it could be a family affair. and i might have to study abroad, not saying that it would be a bad idea, but why not? then again, its hard to let go of this place where memories have been built for a solid 18 years and probably counting.
im trying hard not to think about alot of things in the future and not worry so much. but if everythings insecure right now, wouldn't a little hopeful dream be good? just to keep you going?
nowadays when im not studying, i'll be writing songs. writing songs about loads of things frequently on my mind. its just the way that i express my feelings. through my music and lyrics. most of the time it'll be about that SOMETHING in my last entry. how hard it is to be in and out of it. i just hope i don't get jaded. its like no matter how hard i try, it'll just turn out to be NADA in the end. im getting tired of it. tired of the chase. and when i don't chase, i'll get the wrong ones. ARGH. whatever. when it comes, it comes. i'll just have to wait patiently i guess.
awhile ago i was taking a break and reading my past teenage magazine. there was a question. where do you see yourself in ten years time? hmmm interesting question. one that im not sure of. when i was younger, i had visions and hopes of growing up to be a performer on a big stage performing to MILLIONS. or a professional chef in one of the finest hotels in singpore or overseas. somebody in the media industry film director or producer?. or even a teacher. now my journey has hit some bumps on the way, steering me off the road and into a hazy place.
but after all that bumps im determined now to drive back onto the road.
and say: 'GUESS WHO'S BACK~!"
in all AWESOMENESS(:
time to find the road JO, and get of of the hazy place before you crash and burn cause you can't see. there are certainly gonna be more bumps in the future.
but hey, what doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger right?
okay thats all for now(: BYL!
♥xoxo, jo baby(:
@ 7/17/2009 05:52:00 PM
@ 7/17/2009 05:52:00 PM
Thursday, July 16, 2009
SOMETHING TO TALK ABOUT.
hey bloggies..i just came home from a lunch date with my two good friends glo and D. haa caught up with them. its been awhile. D bought something new again. that guy has KA-CHING i tell you. it was a good buy though looked nice on him. glo was as pretty as usual all dressed up and all for her harry potter movie date sisters... haha she gave up on her bangs. LOL! was nice to talk to them again (:
okay anyways, i know this is totally random from this post but i wanna talk about something.
okay here it goes.
how can something that makes you feel good and on top of it all
at times hurt you as though you've had a great fall?
how can something that is supposed to be easy,
at times turns out complicated and messy?
something makes us afraid of admitting,
cause we all know if it turns sour, we'll end up hurting.
giving and recieving that something can be a gift,
but its hard to find the person to do it with.
i came up with it on the spot. anyone who doesn't empathize with it, say 'I'. i bet everyone has gone through this. so if you still can't figure out what SOMETHING IS, ask me (:
here's a hint. : it takes 2 to clap, we all know that (:
okay BYL guys! (: enjoy guessing.
hey bloggies..i just came home from a lunch date with my two good friends glo and D. haa caught up with them. its been awhile. D bought something new again. that guy has KA-CHING i tell you. it was a good buy though looked nice on him. glo was as pretty as usual all dressed up and all for her harry potter movie date sisters... haha she gave up on her bangs. LOL! was nice to talk to them again (:
okay anyways, i know this is totally random from this post but i wanna talk about something.
okay here it goes.
how can something that makes you feel good and on top of it all
at times hurt you as though you've had a great fall?
how can something that is supposed to be easy,
at times turns out complicated and messy?
something makes us afraid of admitting,
cause we all know if it turns sour, we'll end up hurting.
giving and recieving that something can be a gift,
but its hard to find the person to do it with.
i came up with it on the spot. anyone who doesn't empathize with it, say 'I'. i bet everyone has gone through this. so if you still can't figure out what SOMETHING IS, ask me (:
here's a hint. : it takes 2 to clap, we all know that (:
okay BYL guys! (: enjoy guessing.
♥xoxo, jo baby(:
@ 7/16/2009 06:15:00 PM
@ 7/16/2009 06:15:00 PM
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
HOMESICK.
hey bloggies. i know this is my second post today. but i can't help it. I MISS THEM ALOT. i miss the dark scary walks still filled with laughter to the railroad, to watch the basketball seasons guided only with the light of the moon and stars. yup, NO STREET LIGHTS. the 'emergency toilets' trip while we walked (: the basketball matches, where my cousins would swoon over VENIAL, while i swoon over sneijder. the drinking sessions at every celebration. my REALLY BAD HANGOVER. midnight trips on motorbikes, to beaches and around the village. the laughter when i rammed the motorbike into the garage fridge when i tried to ride the first time. the caroling during christmas. the 'bitchy group which all my cousins hate' confrontations. apparently being a foreigner is an advantage. the blackouts and talks around the lighted candles. the 'jamming' sessions of our favourite sing along song. RED JUMPSUIT APPARATUS'S YOUR GUARDIAN ANGEL. the trip to the pubs and grotto. AND THE FOOD TOO! OH AND NOT TO FORGET THE SINGING.
THE FUN, LAUGHTER, CAREFREENESS (if there is such a word), HAPPINESS, AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, THE PEOPLE. I MISS ALL THAT.
i was going through my MILLIONS of photos (thank god i managed to organize them into folders) when i opened the file labelled ' MY FAMILY' yeah. believe or not, i have more pictures of the pinoy side rather than the singapore one. there everyone is closely-knitted and there for one another. whereas here, everyone is scattered and too busy to care. my pinoy side is like one big happy family. I LOVE THAT. (: i can't wait to see them again. talk about home sickness.
okay i'll just let the picts do the talking, enjoy! (: BYL all! btw these are taken 2 years ago during my solo vacation to the phils where i saw a metor shower on my plane(:
GROTTO!
CHRISTMAS CELEBRATION!
MY LOLA (GRAND MA) (: COOLEST EVER! she still has the MOVES.. you know what i mean. taken on the day that im leaving. thats why she's sad ):
BEFORE YOUR NEW YEAR'S MOTORCYLE RIDE.
MIDNIGHT BEACH RENDEVZOUS.
hey bloggies. i know this is my second post today. but i can't help it. I MISS THEM ALOT. i miss the dark scary walks still filled with laughter to the railroad, to watch the basketball seasons guided only with the light of the moon and stars. yup, NO STREET LIGHTS. the 'emergency toilets' trip while we walked (: the basketball matches, where my cousins would swoon over VENIAL, while i swoon over sneijder. the drinking sessions at every celebration. my REALLY BAD HANGOVER. midnight trips on motorbikes, to beaches and around the village. the laughter when i rammed the motorbike into the garage fridge when i tried to ride the first time. the caroling during christmas. the 'bitchy group which all my cousins hate' confrontations. apparently being a foreigner is an advantage. the blackouts and talks around the lighted candles. the 'jamming' sessions of our favourite sing along song. RED JUMPSUIT APPARATUS'S YOUR GUARDIAN ANGEL. the trip to the pubs and grotto. AND THE FOOD TOO! OH AND NOT TO FORGET THE SINGING.
THE FUN, LAUGHTER, CAREFREENESS (if there is such a word), HAPPINESS, AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, THE PEOPLE. I MISS ALL THAT.
i was going through my MILLIONS of photos (thank god i managed to organize them into folders) when i opened the file labelled ' MY FAMILY' yeah. believe or not, i have more pictures of the pinoy side rather than the singapore one. there everyone is closely-knitted and there for one another. whereas here, everyone is scattered and too busy to care. my pinoy side is like one big happy family. I LOVE THAT. (: i can't wait to see them again. talk about home sickness.
okay i'll just let the picts do the talking, enjoy! (: BYL all! btw these are taken 2 years ago during my solo vacation to the phils where i saw a metor shower on my plane(:
GROTTO!
CHRISTMAS CELEBRATION!
MY LOLA (GRAND MA) (: COOLEST EVER! she still has the MOVES.. you know what i mean. taken on the day that im leaving. thats why she's sad ):
BEFORE YOUR NEW YEAR'S MOTORCYLE RIDE.
MIDNIGHT BEACH RENDEVZOUS.
♥xoxo, jo baby(:
@ 7/15/2009 09:59:00 PM
@ 7/15/2009 09:59:00 PM
MONOPHOBIA! YIKES!
bloggies! i just got back from my job interview at Ehub. and now, i've got a job! working in an awfully new environment alone can be super stressful. its damn weird not having familiar faces around you. its damn weird having to go at it ALONE. to tell you the truth, im scared actually. if there's a word for the fear of being alone. ooh there is. i just found it.. MONOPHOBIA.
I THINK IM SUFFERING FROM A MILD CASE OF MONOPHOBIA!
gosh. i didn't know there's something like that. i guess everyone's afraid of something. and some people arent. like how my mom hates snakes, earthworms and anything that has no legs or millions of legs whereas i find them interesting. and how i hate ALL TYPES OF INSECTS and LIZARDS and WEIRD LOOKING BIRDS, my mum is comfortable arond them. EW. anyways what im trying to say is that, we can't possibly let these fears we have be an obstacle in our lives. we have to find a way to get through or around them and continue walking this rocky road called LIFE. so thats what im gonna do. i've been complaining about how i want to find a job, i can't let this stop me now. i guess this is one disadvantage of being used to having your friends around you all the time. someone will be there to catch you when you fall, encourage you when you need it. coax you into doing stupid things.
now i stand alone facing new people. new routines. new rules. i just hope i make friends there. it ain't nice being alone.
okay ima gonna go try remix and come up with a new dance track for december. so many things to do so little, i still need to cook up some dance steps too and present them to some dance instructors there. haha its gonna be fun but hard to do at the same time. BUT my love for music with pull me through it. (:
okay BYL guys! (:
bloggies! i just got back from my job interview at Ehub. and now, i've got a job! working in an awfully new environment alone can be super stressful. its damn weird not having familiar faces around you. its damn weird having to go at it ALONE. to tell you the truth, im scared actually. if there's a word for the fear of being alone. ooh there is. i just found it.. MONOPHOBIA.
I THINK IM SUFFERING FROM A MILD CASE OF MONOPHOBIA!
gosh. i didn't know there's something like that. i guess everyone's afraid of something. and some people arent. like how my mom hates snakes, earthworms and anything that has no legs or millions of legs whereas i find them interesting. and how i hate ALL TYPES OF INSECTS and LIZARDS and WEIRD LOOKING BIRDS, my mum is comfortable arond them. EW. anyways what im trying to say is that, we can't possibly let these fears we have be an obstacle in our lives. we have to find a way to get through or around them and continue walking this rocky road called LIFE. so thats what im gonna do. i've been complaining about how i want to find a job, i can't let this stop me now. i guess this is one disadvantage of being used to having your friends around you all the time. someone will be there to catch you when you fall, encourage you when you need it. coax you into doing stupid things.
now i stand alone facing new people. new routines. new rules. i just hope i make friends there. it ain't nice being alone.
okay ima gonna go try remix and come up with a new dance track for december. so many things to do so little, i still need to cook up some dance steps too and present them to some dance instructors there. haha its gonna be fun but hard to do at the same time. BUT my love for music with pull me through it. (:
okay BYL guys! (:
♥xoxo, jo baby(:
@ 7/15/2009 03:05:00 PM
@ 7/15/2009 03:05:00 PM
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
MI OI~
hey bloggies! guess what? its crazy i tell you. i was actually hoping that something would go wrong with the exam paper today, and it came through! I DIDN'T TAKE MY EXAMS TODAY! lol! apparently the paper isn't ready hence it was postponed to like saturday. and actually after the paper, i wanted to make my way down to BB to meet my millennian friends. and bescause the paper was cancelled, i went to school earlier. apparently so MANY people couldn't recognise me with my new hairstyle. LOL it was damn funny actually... i woould stare at them then they'll give me the 'WHO THE HELL ARE YOU AND WHY ARE YOU STARING AT ME?' face, while the others just looked confused. haha many had to do double takes. LOL damn funny then when i smiled back, they realised it was me. then zane... the BEST. he went like "JOOOOOO!" haha i miss zaney (: JAMES BETTER ORGANIZE AN OUTING SOON! can't wait to meet you all again. YAY! OH YA SUFI ALSO! she's damn cute! she stoppe in the middle of the road uh. SHOCKED MUCH?! when she was crossing shafiq called her and pointed at me, she saw and then she was stunned for awhile, then she ran back! LOL! then SQUIDDY (: uhh. haha! he was trying to confirm if it was me i guess. LOL. he looked SURPRISED LOL. NICE HAIR BTW (:
anyways. finally hanging out with my MI friends again felt good. damn refreshing actually (: haven't seen them in uni for a very long time. of course there were some tapering of the pants and new hairstyle and colours and all.. haha but i gotta say everyone looked good. HAH! that's it. im gonna wear my MI uniform tmr to watch movie with danni (:
can you believe we are gonna watch some hindi show! (: haha YAY! finally got some reason to wear school U (: haha YAY!
and so not fair uh i had to be out of MI before racial harmony. so fun uh. danni, sha and lah lah told me about the racial harmony dance. JAI HO! haha LOL! i so wanna go back to school to see them dance uh and i also wanna dance with them. DAMN FUN UH! i remember the silat cum wushu workout. LOL!
okay so thats all for now. haha! BYL PEEPS! (:
hey bloggies! guess what? its crazy i tell you. i was actually hoping that something would go wrong with the exam paper today, and it came through! I DIDN'T TAKE MY EXAMS TODAY! lol! apparently the paper isn't ready hence it was postponed to like saturday. and actually after the paper, i wanted to make my way down to BB to meet my millennian friends. and bescause the paper was cancelled, i went to school earlier. apparently so MANY people couldn't recognise me with my new hairstyle. LOL it was damn funny actually... i woould stare at them then they'll give me the 'WHO THE HELL ARE YOU AND WHY ARE YOU STARING AT ME?' face, while the others just looked confused. haha many had to do double takes. LOL damn funny then when i smiled back, they realised it was me. then zane... the BEST. he went like "JOOOOOO!" haha i miss zaney (: JAMES BETTER ORGANIZE AN OUTING SOON! can't wait to meet you all again. YAY! OH YA SUFI ALSO! she's damn cute! she stoppe in the middle of the road uh. SHOCKED MUCH?! when she was crossing shafiq called her and pointed at me, she saw and then she was stunned for awhile, then she ran back! LOL! then SQUIDDY (: uhh. haha! he was trying to confirm if it was me i guess. LOL. he looked SURPRISED LOL. NICE HAIR BTW (:
anyways. finally hanging out with my MI friends again felt good. damn refreshing actually (: haven't seen them in uni for a very long time. of course there were some tapering of the pants and new hairstyle and colours and all.. haha but i gotta say everyone looked good. HAH! that's it. im gonna wear my MI uniform tmr to watch movie with danni (:
can you believe we are gonna watch some hindi show! (: haha YAY! finally got some reason to wear school U (: haha YAY!
and so not fair uh i had to be out of MI before racial harmony. so fun uh. danni, sha and lah lah told me about the racial harmony dance. JAI HO! haha LOL! i so wanna go back to school to see them dance uh and i also wanna dance with them. DAMN FUN UH! i remember the silat cum wushu workout. LOL!
okay so thats all for now. haha! BYL PEEPS! (:
♥xoxo, jo baby(:
@ 7/14/2009 08:10:00 PM
@ 7/14/2009 08:10:00 PM
Monday, July 13, 2009
COMPUTER AND NUMBERS? BA?
hey bloggies! (: its crazy how fast time flies. tmr i'll face my enemy. exam papers.. okay the prob doesn't actually lie with test papers. its lies with the topic im going to take. YEAH INFORMATION TECHNONLOGY. yeah. ironic enough, i HATE computers even if i do use them frequently. but i don't understand why we have to learn about the insides of the computers in detail as if we plan on pursuing a career towards computer engineering BLEAH. haha no offence i just don't well with NUMBERS and COMPUTER STUFFS except for the basics MS office apps and messenger apps. LOL so yeah i just hope everything turns out fine tmr and the teacher doesn't make any changes to the exam papers that he gave the previous time. it'll be damn dumb to change it for one person.
okay... moving on.. YAY! i got a call from the cathay movie theatre for another interview. (: ALRIGHT! (: haha on my way to having a job soon(: a new challenge (:
okay thats all for today (: BYL guys (:
hey bloggies! (: its crazy how fast time flies. tmr i'll face my enemy. exam papers.. okay the prob doesn't actually lie with test papers. its lies with the topic im going to take. YEAH INFORMATION TECHNONLOGY. yeah. ironic enough, i HATE computers even if i do use them frequently. but i don't understand why we have to learn about the insides of the computers in detail as if we plan on pursuing a career towards computer engineering BLEAH. haha no offence i just don't well with NUMBERS and COMPUTER STUFFS except for the basics MS office apps and messenger apps. LOL so yeah i just hope everything turns out fine tmr and the teacher doesn't make any changes to the exam papers that he gave the previous time. it'll be damn dumb to change it for one person.
okay... moving on.. YAY! i got a call from the cathay movie theatre for another interview. (: ALRIGHT! (: haha on my way to having a job soon(: a new challenge (:
okay thats all for today (: BYL guys (:
♥xoxo, jo baby(:
@ 7/13/2009 08:23:00 PM
@ 7/13/2009 08:23:00 PM
Sunday, July 12, 2009
I CAN GET SOME SELF-SATISFACTION! (:
hey hey bloggies! back again with another entry! i feel accomplished to have studied my business admin (information technology)! haha I FEEL GOOD! haha! SENSE OF ACCOMPLISHMENT puts a smile on my face! (: ALRIGHT! so yeah. finally, a nice post after serveral morbid ones. LOL. i just hope whatever i studied will come out for the retest.*CROSSING MY FINGERS VERY TIGHTLY* haha okay. today was actually nothing much though. im just waiting for the harper's island 2 hour finale. although i already know who's the other killer. haha i suspected correctly ALRIGHT! maybe cause i watched too many CSI lol.. so yeah. and plus i've got a supply of oreo to last me the entire 2 hours! (:
haha so BYL ima gonna go facebook awhile (: seeya!
hey hey bloggies! back again with another entry! i feel accomplished to have studied my business admin (information technology)! haha I FEEL GOOD! haha! SENSE OF ACCOMPLISHMENT puts a smile on my face! (: ALRIGHT! so yeah. finally, a nice post after serveral morbid ones. LOL. i just hope whatever i studied will come out for the retest.*CROSSING MY FINGERS VERY TIGHTLY* haha okay. today was actually nothing much though. im just waiting for the harper's island 2 hour finale. although i already know who's the other killer. haha i suspected correctly ALRIGHT! maybe cause i watched too many CSI lol.. so yeah. and plus i've got a supply of oreo to last me the entire 2 hours! (:
haha so BYL ima gonna go facebook awhile (: seeya!
♥xoxo, jo baby(:
@ 7/12/2009 07:26:00 PM
@ 7/12/2009 07:26:00 PM
Saturday, July 11, 2009
STAND UP. UP ON YOUR FEET GIRL.
hey bloggies.. woah here's another entry.. oh no... with the number of entries im writing, goodness. i really am damn free. i've been thinking before sleeping. its time i pick up the pieces. JOANNA GERMAINE YAP will NOT be kept down for long. i need to stand up. need cash and i need to take care of myself. I NEED TO WORK. guess im too used to having a busy and hetic schedule. since primary school, days filled with tuition. secondary school, days filled with band leadership responsibilites, PRE U life filled with too many activites that i can't count. I NEED MY LIFE BACK.
besides, working ain't that bad. earning money = increase in spending power= self satisfaction. yeah of course life is not always about self satisfaction. i just basically need to feel that im doing something useful and not idling at home feeling lousy about my life. BLEAH WHAT TYPE OF LIFESTYLE IS THAT?
SO, time to WAKE UP JO. okay after this retest, im gonna make sure i've secured a part time job that i like. and work with a smile on my face. i wanna be looked up to again for something that i've achieved. im gonna make my mark in this family.
nothing is gonna stop me. yeah you can fall but stand up fast girl, time ain't gonna wait for you. you know you can. you will not feel USELESS ANY MORE.
done. BYL !
hey bloggies.. woah here's another entry.. oh no... with the number of entries im writing, goodness. i really am damn free. i've been thinking before sleeping. its time i pick up the pieces. JOANNA GERMAINE YAP will NOT be kept down for long. i need to stand up. need cash and i need to take care of myself. I NEED TO WORK. guess im too used to having a busy and hetic schedule. since primary school, days filled with tuition. secondary school, days filled with band leadership responsibilites, PRE U life filled with too many activites that i can't count. I NEED MY LIFE BACK.
besides, working ain't that bad. earning money = increase in spending power= self satisfaction. yeah of course life is not always about self satisfaction. i just basically need to feel that im doing something useful and not idling at home feeling lousy about my life. BLEAH WHAT TYPE OF LIFESTYLE IS THAT?
SO, time to WAKE UP JO. okay after this retest, im gonna make sure i've secured a part time job that i like. and work with a smile on my face. i wanna be looked up to again for something that i've achieved. im gonna make my mark in this family.
nothing is gonna stop me. yeah you can fall but stand up fast girl, time ain't gonna wait for you. you know you can. you will not feel USELESS ANY MORE.
done. BYL !
♥xoxo, jo baby(:
@ 7/11/2009 03:09:00 PM
@ 7/11/2009 03:09:00 PM
Friday, July 10, 2009
SENTOSA AND THE HOT HOT SUN!
hey hey hey bloggies! OMG... im like super red uh.. LIKE A COOKED PRAWN.. im waiting to peel... haha yeah tan lines... uneven... bleah.. i shall go tanning with michi someday.. to get this tan even out... hmmm.. sounds like a good plan (:
anyways.. sentosa was fun (: i LOVED hard core captain's ball.. (: AWESOMENESS. but then again tiring. i swear it was a violent game. got hit into the sand.. and my whole body is aching LOL. the things i do for fun (:
and volley was nice too... but i don't see why my mom's so good at it and im not.. LOL pinoys are good at several things volley is one of them. yup.. volley contributed to my upper arm aching today.. i love diving into the sand. i think i'll ask my mom to teach me some tricks. chun fai is the volley player so i guess it was easy for him. other potential volley players were ernest and ming li uh. the guys were mostly good.. haha the us girls just contributed to the squeals and a few winning hits here and there. haha it was nice..
okay guys thats all i have for you today, so yeah... update you guys soon (:
hey hey hey bloggies! OMG... im like super red uh.. LIKE A COOKED PRAWN.. im waiting to peel... haha yeah tan lines... uneven... bleah.. i shall go tanning with michi someday.. to get this tan even out... hmmm.. sounds like a good plan (:
anyways.. sentosa was fun (: i LOVED hard core captain's ball.. (: AWESOMENESS. but then again tiring. i swear it was a violent game. got hit into the sand.. and my whole body is aching LOL. the things i do for fun (:
and volley was nice too... but i don't see why my mom's so good at it and im not.. LOL pinoys are good at several things volley is one of them. yup.. volley contributed to my upper arm aching today.. i love diving into the sand. i think i'll ask my mom to teach me some tricks. chun fai is the volley player so i guess it was easy for him. other potential volley players were ernest and ming li uh. the guys were mostly good.. haha the us girls just contributed to the squeals and a few winning hits here and there. haha it was nice..
okay guys thats all i have for you today, so yeah... update you guys soon (:
♥xoxo, jo baby(:
@ 7/10/2009 06:59:00 PM
@ 7/10/2009 06:59:00 PM
Thursday, July 9, 2009
I SHOULD'VE KNOWN
haha hey there! (: okay, so im gonna squeeze in alittle blogging time before i even meet up with shafiq and khad. havent seen them in awhile and im dying to know how was india from sha... haha LOL! and today is gonna be 09b1 CLASS BBQ! (: alright! i can't wait to see them!
anyways, i can't help to shake this feeling that something strange is going on.. yeah... time changes things and i sooooo feel it now.. things aren't like before and things can never stay the same no matter how hard you try to make it.
'i just didn't expect you would be like that. i thought you were gonna pull through. and now i know i was wrong about you. you made me change my opinion about you. you're a touch-and-go friend. should've known.'
haha hey there! (: okay, so im gonna squeeze in alittle blogging time before i even meet up with shafiq and khad. havent seen them in awhile and im dying to know how was india from sha... haha LOL! and today is gonna be 09b1 CLASS BBQ! (: alright! i can't wait to see them!
anyways, i can't help to shake this feeling that something strange is going on.. yeah... time changes things and i sooooo feel it now.. things aren't like before and things can never stay the same no matter how hard you try to make it.
'i just didn't expect you would be like that. i thought you were gonna pull through. and now i know i was wrong about you. you made me change my opinion about you. you're a touch-and-go friend. should've known.'
♥xoxo, jo baby(:
@ 7/09/2009 09:14:00 AM
@ 7/09/2009 09:14:00 AM
Sunday, July 5, 2009
MY FRIDAY NIGHT AND BORING WEEKENDS.
hey bloggies!!!! haha so the weekends are gonna be ovr BUT, tmr is YOUTH DAY! (: haha i hope you got nice activities planned out (: i remember last year when i, edward and farith were walking around and we decied to walk to clark quay and naturally, we went into a pub called highlanders. haha nice... so i ordered magarita and eddy ordered some beer and i got farith a shirely temple... haha NO worries its non alchololic... yeah so with that, we had fries and onion rings.. an eddy taught us how to tie a knot on a cherry stick.. haha it was damn fun. (: had a great time. the good old days.
but i think i'll be stuck at home tmr unless some khaikis ask me out for a youth day activity. dang.. anyways... gosh i have to sit for my private diploma retest on the 14th.. (cross my fingers) oh yah wanted to update you about friday.
so after my usual friday routine. that is going for choir pract, then i met claudine at tm for our midnight movie. TRANSFORMERS! (: YAY! its finally nice to see claud and josh duhamel again.. in case you;'re wondering who the hll is josh duhamel? he's the main soldier. THE HOT ONE. (: anyways... claudine didnt sleep although its not her usual time to be awake.. ITS TOO DAMN ACTION PACKED. i wanted to catch a toliet break if i spot any boring scenes.. but the show didn't let be so by the time the movie ended everyone was like rushing to the toilet. i practically had to run to the second floor of century square... thank god the escalators were still moving or at least the moving downward ones. so cabed home with claud (: AWESOME NIGHT.
so saturday, nothing much stayed at home (been doing that alot lately). and waited for harry potter to play on channel 5.
and today, was my first time singing with seraphim in a VERY VERY long time. and thn went for lunch with my bro and michi. introduced the SHENG MIAN the air-con coffeeshop was selling. and she LOVED IT. (: haha can't say the same about my bro. we ate ALOT and ordered crispy beancurd thinking that it would be like the normal beancurd you know the one with the sweet mayo? yeah but this beancurd had stuffing inside. some luncheon meat thing. and some spring onions. YUCK. but we managed not to waste the $6 bucks we spent on it and did not want to feel bad. so we finished the dish. (: and nothing much happened.
gonna get ready for dinner now(: update ya all again soon! (:
BYL PEEPS! (:
hey bloggies!!!! haha so the weekends are gonna be ovr BUT, tmr is YOUTH DAY! (: haha i hope you got nice activities planned out (: i remember last year when i, edward and farith were walking around and we decied to walk to clark quay and naturally, we went into a pub called highlanders. haha nice... so i ordered magarita and eddy ordered some beer and i got farith a shirely temple... haha NO worries its non alchololic... yeah so with that, we had fries and onion rings.. an eddy taught us how to tie a knot on a cherry stick.. haha it was damn fun. (: had a great time. the good old days.
but i think i'll be stuck at home tmr unless some khaikis ask me out for a youth day activity. dang.. anyways... gosh i have to sit for my private diploma retest on the 14th.. (cross my fingers) oh yah wanted to update you about friday.
so after my usual friday routine. that is going for choir pract, then i met claudine at tm for our midnight movie. TRANSFORMERS! (: YAY! its finally nice to see claud and josh duhamel again.. in case you;'re wondering who the hll is josh duhamel? he's the main soldier. THE HOT ONE. (: anyways... claudine didnt sleep although its not her usual time to be awake.. ITS TOO DAMN ACTION PACKED. i wanted to catch a toliet break if i spot any boring scenes.. but the show didn't let be so by the time the movie ended everyone was like rushing to the toilet. i practically had to run to the second floor of century square... thank god the escalators were still moving or at least the moving downward ones. so cabed home with claud (: AWESOME NIGHT.
so saturday, nothing much stayed at home (been doing that alot lately). and waited for harry potter to play on channel 5.
and today, was my first time singing with seraphim in a VERY VERY long time. and thn went for lunch with my bro and michi. introduced the SHENG MIAN the air-con coffeeshop was selling. and she LOVED IT. (: haha can't say the same about my bro. we ate ALOT and ordered crispy beancurd thinking that it would be like the normal beancurd you know the one with the sweet mayo? yeah but this beancurd had stuffing inside. some luncheon meat thing. and some spring onions. YUCK. but we managed not to waste the $6 bucks we spent on it and did not want to feel bad. so we finished the dish. (: and nothing much happened.
gonna get ready for dinner now(: update ya all again soon! (:
BYL PEEPS! (:
♥xoxo, jo baby(:
@ 7/05/2009 05:30:00 PM
@ 7/05/2009 05:30:00 PM
Friday, July 3, 2009
TIME FOR CHANGE AND A MIDNIGHT MOVIE!
hey bloggies! (: time for new welcome picture and profile picture... as you might have heard, i changed my blog song. haha you guys might have heard it before on my my blog or on somewhere else, this song might be old but i think its a real nice song. jason reeves teaches us in his song, 'its not over til its over. sometimes nowhere leads to somewhere.' and 'it all starts again in the end' yeah. it gives us a second chance to start anew, to change ourselves to be better when you think its the end.
okay i don't think i'll be able to blog at all later cause i've been on the computer for a very long time now and also because i'll be watching a 10:10pm movie with my big sis claud (: gosh, i miss her so (: YAY! i can't wait! time to catch up babe! got loads to tell you! i hope to catch up with my other friends too... its been a while since i met them. meet up soon kay guys! (: gimme a ring(: haha! TRANSFORMERS! (: YAY! its gonna be fun! (:
hey bloggies! (: time for new welcome picture and profile picture... as you might have heard, i changed my blog song. haha you guys might have heard it before on my my blog or on somewhere else, this song might be old but i think its a real nice song. jason reeves teaches us in his song, 'its not over til its over. sometimes nowhere leads to somewhere.' and 'it all starts again in the end' yeah. it gives us a second chance to start anew, to change ourselves to be better when you think its the end.
okay i don't think i'll be able to blog at all later cause i've been on the computer for a very long time now and also because i'll be watching a 10:10pm movie with my big sis claud (: gosh, i miss her so (: YAY! i can't wait! time to catch up babe! got loads to tell you! i hope to catch up with my other friends too... its been a while since i met them. meet up soon kay guys! (: gimme a ring(: haha! TRANSFORMERS! (: YAY! its gonna be fun! (:
♥xoxo, jo baby(:
@ 7/03/2009 05:50:00 PM
@ 7/03/2009 05:50:00 PM
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
hey guys. im gonna busy myself with writing songs and improving in my song writing. i guess hope angie will come over soon and put her musicality in those words. alright i'll publish a good one asap. stay tuned (: although i can;t music in school anymore, i can write it at home unless i can find somewhere quiet. (: wish me luck (:
♥xoxo, jo baby(:
@ 7/01/2009 04:46:00 PM
@ 7/01/2009 04:46:00 PM
I NEED A COMPASS.
hey bloggies! im back with another entry... this might sound morbid and stuff and sorry if you had to read this post if you're having a happy day, but i gotta write what i gotta write. even if haters wanna arrow me with their words.
honestly, i miss school... i would rather go to school than to stay at home. im not scared of any drama i might face if i return. school was my joy. joy in a sense of belonging with my friends. comfort, when things go wrong at home. Now its harder to meet up with them. harder to find joy. or happiness. i told you before, i think im losing my flair in life. i just don't have a direction to walk towards and everything is hazy. somehow i feel nothing is secure in my life. i sudden lost my focus on my future. its weird not having school around. i need something to keep me on track. on track with my life, and satisfied for myself that at least im still keeping something secured. i think im losing self assurance, cause i haven't achieved anything significant so far. and i can't help to be feel useless. i wanna do something. i wanna change my life now but i havent found the perfect opportunity to do so. maybe my opportunity would not appear here. but somewhere out of singapore? i don't know. i need to revamp my life. i need something to do fast. not to stay at home and idle. if you know me i don't do well with staying put.
okay i gtg now. so i pray that god would rpovide me guidance in life cause im kinda lost. pray for me guys.
BYL! (:
hey bloggies! im back with another entry... this might sound morbid and stuff and sorry if you had to read this post if you're having a happy day, but i gotta write what i gotta write. even if haters wanna arrow me with their words.
honestly, i miss school... i would rather go to school than to stay at home. im not scared of any drama i might face if i return. school was my joy. joy in a sense of belonging with my friends. comfort, when things go wrong at home. Now its harder to meet up with them. harder to find joy. or happiness. i told you before, i think im losing my flair in life. i just don't have a direction to walk towards and everything is hazy. somehow i feel nothing is secure in my life. i sudden lost my focus on my future. its weird not having school around. i need something to keep me on track. on track with my life, and satisfied for myself that at least im still keeping something secured. i think im losing self assurance, cause i haven't achieved anything significant so far. and i can't help to be feel useless. i wanna do something. i wanna change my life now but i havent found the perfect opportunity to do so. maybe my opportunity would not appear here. but somewhere out of singapore? i don't know. i need to revamp my life. i need something to do fast. not to stay at home and idle. if you know me i don't do well with staying put.
okay i gtg now. so i pray that god would rpovide me guidance in life cause im kinda lost. pray for me guys.
BYL! (:
♥xoxo, jo baby(:
@ 7/01/2009 03:13:00 PM
@ 7/01/2009 03:13:00 PM
QWERTY PHONE!